Heidi Klum describes the end of her marriage as a ''curveball.''
The supermodel and singer Seal split in January after seven years of marriage and Heidi is still figuring out how to adjust to the changes in her life.
She told allure magazine: ''Sometimes life throws you a curveball, and then you just figure it out and deal with it, but my dream always was that - to have the perfect family and have lots of children and a beautiful garden and trampolines and swings and things.
''I had dreams of how I wanted things to be and planned for things and, as we all know today, they don't always turn out as you dreamt them in your head.''
Heidi - who raises children Leni, seven, Henry, six, Johan, five, and two-year-old Lou with Seal - added she doesn't feel any resent about the split, which her former husband has said was caused by them growing apart.
She added: ''I don't resent anything that ever happened. Things just turn out the way they turn out.''
The 38-year-old model also told the magazine she is proud never to have had surgery, as she doesn't think the results look good.
She said: ''I'm proud to be able to say, in this day and age, I haven't done anything. Everyone has a view of what's not pretty and [plastic surgery] just doesn't look pretty to me.''