Courtney Love had a panic attack on the way to stay with Gwyneth Paltrow and Chris Martin because she thought she wasn't "good enough" for them.
The former Hole singer - who has had well publicized battles with drug addictions in the past - felt inadequate as she traveled to stay with the 'Shakespeare in Love' actress, who she calls GP, and her Coldplay frontman husband.
She said: "Over the years Gwyneth has always invited me out to London and I have always procrastinated. I was like, 'What if I come out to hang out with her and Chris Martin, who is a genius, and me being such the opposite of who they are.' My 'What if?' worries started to kick in."
"So f**k it! I decide to go to GP and face my fears, I pull up to a neighborhood near Chelsea. My anxiety is kicking in and I am terrified I am not good enough for GP, for their beautiful lovely home, and lovely lifestyle and lovely family! What if my hair is messy? What if my extensions fall out? What if I have lipstick and spinach stuck between my teeth? What if they don't get my jokes? What if they hate to gossip? What if I accidentally made a stain on Gwyneth's coffee table?"
However, Courtney says she was soon made to feel comfortable by Chris, Gwyneth and their two children - Apple and Moses. She added on her MySpace blog: "I arrive two minutes early, and before I can even light my nerve smoke, Chris greets me at that gate with a gorgeous smile and a big hug. As I enter the kitchen there's an ashtray, two lighters and two packs of Silk Cuts. Did I just f**king die and go to heaven? Next thing I know I am being kissed by a beautiful woman (GP), wearing an apron! She is all chipper and rubs my head and pinches my cheeks! I am so overwhelmed by the atmosphere and the fact I can f**king have a smoke without getting arrested or kicked out."
"I give GP a big bear hug and just lifted her up off the floor and guess what? She is a slip of a girl and light as a feather and far more beautiful than should be legal with an IQ that I have discovered and cannot reveal, although it is out of this world and much higher than one might think."
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